Holding On

I called a friend today, told her I needed a friend. She listened. Didn't have time to come over, though she invited me to come over to her house but I am busy here making my Christmas presents. We talked for a while. It was nice. I also asked a favor of her. I asked her to check in on me occasionally, to see how I am doing. Told her it was frustrating being in my position and always having to be the one making contact with friends and that if just every once in a while someone were to reach out and let me know they were thinking of me it would make a world of difference. She said she would try, but that if I didn't hear from her not to take it personally.

I couldn't find a good rubber band to put around my wrist, but I did find a scrunchy so I am trying it. Unfortunately it is really tight right now, I am trying to stretch it a little. I hope this idea works.

I have a headache again and I am achy all over too. My right knee has been bothering me a lot lately and yesterday I jammed my left toe into the floor, I think I cracked the nail. A laugh a minute around here. I must say, though, I do feel a little better, emotionally, since I talked to my friend. She really is a good friend, even if she doesn't live up to MY expectations! Its not fair of me to judge her for not doing things she doesn't know I want her to do. I just need to be able to tell her what I need. So today I did and it went well. I don't know what I was so afraid of. I think I make things too hard for myself sometimes!